Echoes of Mercy

In less than two weeks, I will turn 38.  January 15, 1974 God brought me into this world.

I wanted to share this testimony of how God is merciful.  When I was 15 I tried to commit suicide.  This is something that is not talked about in my family.  I know they probably thought I was crazy to do this. In fact, suicide is probably not talked about in most families.  This is one of those taboo subjects. 

My attempt to commit suicide was a selfish act.  I had just moved to a strange place - Dale City, VA - from Alexandria, VA (all that I had known from a kid until then).  I felt like my parents we uprooting me to give me a better life.  We moved from an apartment on Duke street to a three bedroom house out in the country (OK at that time Dale City was majority white and was not as built up as it is now).  Many years later I learned from my friend, Shanita Brown, it is called having a problem with transitioning (she is one her way to becoming Dr. Brown at NC State).

When I committed this act, I had no clue who God was. I didn't grow up in a Godly household.  I didn't received Christ as my Lord and Savior until I was 24.  All I know is I wanted things to stay the same and life sucked so I wanted to "get my parents back" by killing myself.   

So from the time of 15 until 24 all I know is that God's Echoes of Mercy were calling me into a relationship with Him.  I am grateful for every year after 15 because He truly did add years to my life.  My life is a gift from God and I vow to carry out the work He has given me.  I stand on His Word:  Philippians 1:6:  For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. We truly do overcome him (the enemy) by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony.


For anyone who is considering suicide I beseech (urgently and anxiously beg and plead) that you seek help IMMEDIATELY!!! God loves you and He wants a relationship with you!!!  He has a good plan for your life!!! His echoes of mercy are being extended to YOU!!!  Won't you received them!!!!!

Cole