The fizzle and sabotage' factors

OK so I have been dealing with what I call the fizzle and sabotage' factors.

The fizzle factor is when I get all excited about something/someone and then after like 2 or 3 weeks of it, the thrill is gone. If I get bored with or the something/someone requires too much work, I am quick to drop it!!

The sabotage' factor is when I am doing well with something, people start acknowledging it, and recommend me to the masses, I automatically stop doing well. I become slack because now I feel like people are putting responsibility on me and now I MUST deliver. When a sister is pressured in this fashion, I just revert back to laziness.

What God is showing me is all of it is based on FEAR!!! The fizzle and sabotage' factor do not rule me. Being more than a conqueror means I master my weaknesses.

I am not going to be controlled by these two bammas - Fizzle and sabotage'. The ONLY way to overcome any weakness is to repent, submit and obey!!!!

God continues to encourage me. He keeps telling me not to grow weary in my well doing because I will reap if I FAINT not!!!! Galatians 6:9
The Greek word for faint mean to loose, unloose, to set free, to exhaust, to relax one's strength, to be deprived of strength through exhaustion, to be tired out, and to feel or show extreme discouragement, depression or dejection.

Remember - FAINT NOT!!!!!!

Singing On the road again....

Well I am writing this blog while chilling in my 2nd home - RDU International Airport. I never thought when I joined my corporation 13 years ago I would be doing all this traveling.

As a young 23 year old graduate I thought I owned the world and I could conqueror anything. Now as a 36 year old seasoned professional, I still have those same thoughts but I just accomplish them by methods that will please the Lord.

Sometimes we sit on the sidelines of life and view what others are doing thinking in the back of our head YEAH I could, should, and would do that BUT!!!! I don't want to be one of those people. I have learned to be one of the people to think and say do I CAN, WILL, and DO in spite of.

Yes, we all have some aspect of our lives that we could use as excuses to keep us in the former category of people, BUT don't let that stop you from being all that God called you to be.

Being on the road for work could be used as my excuse to complain about life but I believe I would probably not be as people-oriented if I did not have the experiences I have had. Being on the road allows me to understand more about me, increase my network and MOST importantly be the light in this world.

So YES I am singing on the road again and I am glad about it!!!

Not so chefy today!!!

OK so I tried to make two recipes today - Red Cabbage and Apples and chicken loaf. OK I can understand why the chicken loaf sucked, it is because I did not put enough seasonings in that joint. But I thought the Red Cabbage tasted good but I just did not want to eat it for some reason. I think I got all heath conscious (it had half a stick of butter in it) and what not (dang who say what not anymore LOL).

I was on a roll last week. Man you win some you lose some but I am not going to stop trying. No this is not the black version of Julie and Julia, which btw was a good movie. I am trying to a mass some recipes that I can use so I don't eat the same thing over and over. OK I don't see the problem eating spaghetti all the time. I LOVE spaghetti! Shanita I think I am going to cook your recipe on Monday.

I am in the process of getting an island and a pot rack put into my kitchen. It is going to be quite nice. It will be of dual function - a work area and a table. I found the idea online. My girl, Kenya, is going to help me pick out tile for the top of the island and for my backsplash. Yeah, I am making some home improvements over here this year. TBH I waited so long to put it in because I did not think I would be here that long....ahhh look at me it's going on three years now....I still cannot believe it!!! But I absolutely love it down here. I don't regret leaving. Tip: Don't stay where God has told you to leave, you become out of the will of God and dissatisfied!!!

I think I need to buy a few new pots and pans and some small kitchen appliances. I have my eye on this kitchen aid mixer but I don't think I want to pay $400+ for an electric mixer. Especially since I am a fake me out chef. I am already upset that I have burned 2 of my All clad pans.

So if you have some recipes point me to them. Chef BoyRNikki is signing off! Night night and good eating!!!

It's been a min....but I AM BACK!!!!

Hey all! Yes, it has been a while since I have written a in the Cole Chronicles online. I have been writing off on my computer journal. Yes, you know your girl is high tech.

This entry is going to be short but I did want to announce that I am back at blogging again. I think my last online entry was in June of '09. Well alot has happened since then. YES, for the better.

Stay tuned! Cole

The first time I heard you pray ode to my Daddy

Hey fam! I thank God for giving me various ways to express myself. Poetry is one of those ways. I like to think of my poems as modern day psalms. Words are so beautiful!!!!

So as I was about to go to sleep, I was listening to Lexi's He's Here Right Now (OK so I am starting to say right now with a Southern accent and it makes me giggle...I am so goofy :>..I digress :>) and God dropped this poem in my Spirit.

It is about the first time I EVER heard my Daddy pray. Yes, that was THREE days ago, March 31, 2009. I called and he was about to eat lunch. He said excuse me Nik (that is what my parents call me...giggle...giggle) I need to bless my food. No it was not one of those good food good meat let's eat prayers. I heard his heart and I just cried. I heard how he and God have a relationship.

See ever since my father had a stroke last year, he has been in and out of the hospital and in a nursing home. I always felt I needed to be home to protect him. I wanted to be his God. But God confirmed what He already told me...I got this I am with him. Focus on what I told you to do and I will take care of your life.

I pray you enjoy and in the words of my PRAYING Daddy...let go and let God!!!!!


First time I heard you pray

The first time I heard you pray it was on Tuesday, March 31, 2009 to give thanks for your food. It blessed my heart yes indeed. I continue to see how God is meeting every need.

Because I knew the conversion was true and I thank God for his faithfulness in saving you.

Tears just streamed down my face as I thought about God’s amazing grace.

In the past you would have just thanked yourself, yes you were that bold to declare yourself God. Humbling circumstances has determined you were a fraud.

But I cannot help but remember that day when I cried out to God. I stood in the gap for eight years holding on to the promise of God.

On June 29,2007 the manifestation came the first time I formally preached. Only God knew through me it was your heart He would reach.

For two years we have shared this heavenly bond. As I look back I would have it no other way. All the memories that were triggered the first time I heard you pray!!!

I love you Daddy! Nikki

My Bahama cruise

Hey fam!
Well I just got back from my first cruise. I tell you I had an AWESOME time!!!! I am looking forward to cruising again in the near future.

When going on a cruise it is important to make sure you go with the right people because you spend more time socializing (other than eating LOL). The ladies I went with were such a blessing to me. We really enjoyed each other's company. Oh the fellowship on the way down was AWESOME!!!! I just thank and praise God for bringing these women of God into my life. Each of us have own style and personalities but yet we have a common thread - Jesus Christ.

Alison is a hoot!!! She had me laughing so hard I started wheezing...ya know ya girl got asthma LOL I almost had to get my inhaler out. She has such a sweet spirit. Everyone was like where is the ring leader - Alison. Roe is always ready for the camera. She will strike a pose on you no matter what!!!! Always be ye ready is her motto LOL Sonya was little firecracker (man down and get ya girl). She was just ready at all times. She would just pop and say what's up what's going on LOL Pam was so bubbly. Keep smiling girl!!!!! Well you know me ya girl was just chilling in the background .and eating (ya know your girl likes to get her eat on)...if you see five heart beats you will get that one LOL. I just liked to laugh myself sick....I wanted to cry at times because of how blessed my life is. See we often thought our lives should be one way but God makes it something different. I am content with the something different....OK why I gotta preach/teach in this blog LOL Stir up the gifts!!!!!

It was not as hot as I wanted it to be because you know a sista likes to get her tan on. But no worries we had other things to keep us occupied. I did much resting and eating...eating...eating...eating Dang every time I turned around there was food. I thought I was going shout when I saw turkey sausage on the menu. You know your girl does not eat red meat... OK so you know they got me with the free sushi samples. They were on point but when we went to the restaurant it was not good.

The ship rocked so much that last two nights that I did not have good sleep but it was all good because I had me a nap during the day. There was this weird guy on the ship. We called him a robot. We never saw him eat and he walked like he was FBI or CIA. He was stealth for real. You would look up and be like oh my there he is. Seemed like he just showed up out of no where.

It was cool to meet so many different people from other places. We just really enjoyed ourselves and I believe we touched people's lives with the love of God while on that ship.
OK we must of been too rowdy @ one of the shows because a couple had to move from us. Look you know ya' girl was getting her singing on.....I probably would have move too if I heard me singing LOL

Ahh the memories!!! God is so good to allow me to add more memories to my life. I have nothing to complain about. Fam, life is good even when don't think we have the best circumstances. Stop thinking about what you don't have and love those around you. I have resolved to be found content in whatever state I am found!!!!

OK so God once again was protecting us from dangers unseen. We stopped at the South of the Boarder to gas up and stretch, we heard a tornado was going to touch down in Cumberland County. How about we just missed the tornado. As we were riding by we could see all the damage. We just thanking and praising God!!! God is so good!!!! I thank and praise him for getting us back safely to Raleigh.

OK so as you look through our pics http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=235059&id=766480170&l=a397d2945e and http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=235075&id=766480170&l=4a5f09213e I hope you can feel the love and fun. I can't give too many details because we said what goes on on the ship stays on the ship!!!!

Make some memories today!!!

Cole

New Music Alert!!! Daunta Tyler's God is Love

Hey fam!


Ok when I went to the Power of the Tongue Open Mic Cafe this is one of the many gifted individuals who were ministering.

He sang two songs: See Your Face and God Is Love. I really loved both these songs so I had to buy the CD. And boy am I glad I did!!!

Daunta's love for and dependence on God permeates through each song. Other songs I really love are All That, Heart Is Yearning, Awesome God, So Worthy, He Is In Love With You, Give Me You (not on the album but on his myspace page).....OK I just LOVE all the songs.

You can check out his music at Amazon, eMusic, iTunes and myspace

I pray that this man of God continues to seek the face of God and allow God to use this music to draw souls to the body of Christ.
Cole